Stream of consciousness poem -- part 40

Chapter 40

October 29, 2011 – Early afternoon

We reach

The Mental Health Center

Right around

 One

In the afternoon

We are

Not late

My son

And my husband

Get out of the car

To walk

Around

My son

refuses

To ride

In the

Stroller

He says

He is

Too big

Alone

I go

First to one

Building

And then to the other

And then

Back to

The first building

Again

I think

But don’t say

That the

Back and forth-ing

Is nuts

As I

Move from

One building

To the other

I glance up at

My son

I am

worried

But he looks

Happy

Finally I

Walk to

The double doors

Of the

Hospital

Itself

I am

Nervous

About seeing my brother

About how he will look

And how he will act

And how he will be

And if he

Will live

But running

Constantly

Through the back of mind

In a loop

Of background noise

Is the thought:

I hope

They let

ME out